As it draws near....

Sadly enough, perhaps nothing excites me more than the 3 days surrounding Thanksgiving.  Tonight I will make my way up to the "dorf" to go shopping with my aunt at Toys R Us and the mall.  TOMORROW night, I may even find myself doing some shopping.  A lot of stores are opening at midnight and Toys R Us is opening at 10. You would NOT BELIEVE the bargains they are having!  And of course there's....DUN, DUN, DUN....Black Friday!  Oh Black Friday...how I love thee...let me count the ways!  Oh wait, did I mention Cyber Monday?

My inbox to both my hotmail and metrocast e-mail is filled to the brim every morning when I awake----tons of retailers offering me their "Very Best Sale of the Year"!  And yes, it's suckers like myself who will look long and hard at every single one, hemming and hawwing about whether I should take the leap and buy now or wait closer to Christmas.  Either way, I'm pretty hyped up about it all.  Gracen is at such a fun age and now and even Parker....loves everything, and I know he'll get a huge kick out of Christmas.

And with all that said, no, I haven't forgotten about Thanksgiving.  How can I?  I've been dreading it for months now.  For the past week, despite my best efforts, I've been waking up early in the morning, anxiety ridden.  All I can think about is dad, and all I can see are his last few, terrifying moments here on earth.  Horrible, I know.  I'm not sure what it's all about or why it's happening.  It's just, well, UGH.  I think what's tortured me more than dad's actual death, is the way he spent his last couple of months and his last couple of hours here on earth.  But, enough about that.....onto being thankful!

I am going to make a conscious effort, starting NOW,  to turn everything into thankfulness.  My first step...I am thankful  (as I'm sure others are) for the nice, hot shower I'm about to take.  Albeit, it'll be with the door open and constantly peeking my head out to check on Gracen, but nonetheless, thankful for it.  I will save my REALLY thankful blog for tomorrow (when I'm getting all those great deals---hahahaha).  Happy day before Thanksgiving everyone!